Becoming a Benevolent Killer

Sacred Destruction: Do no harm, take no shit

People who continue to go to war with the system are unknowingly waging war on themselves and keeping the division alive inwardly, thus allowing it to continue to reflect that in the outer world.

The real war is with yourself.

The real war is about unbecoming everything you were told you should be as to become the warrior for the version of you that has been waiting on your arrival, the authentic you.

The powers-at-be try to play God because they have severed their connection with God, while those who choose the organic nature of life can see they are an extension, or part of God, of Source. From this place you can begin to lower the need for a savior AND its counterpart, or twin, the savior complex, and allow others to have their own experiences, while still holding steady to knowing thyself and staying centered from the framework of that gnosis.

Once you begin to see the wings are on the same bird from the left/right false light paradigm to the religion/spirituality control mechanism, and so forth, you can begin to wield the sword of your words, and works, from a wider perspective and a higher minded viewpoint.

Thus, to become a benevolent killer, you need not seek power over others…you need not hurt because you were hurt…you need not grapple with being pulled into extremes in order to fit in or be accepted, but you must find courage by removing your own armor so that you can examine all the walls that have been built up and begin to chip away at them.

When you remove your armor, you have no choice but to trust in yourself, and something greater than you….removing your armor is removing faith in other men, in man-made constructs held up by irrational fears from invisible enemies….it’s the type of surrender that will teach you to trust God, trust yourself and be open to trusting others, even if they let you down….you learn how to trust by trusting…you learn how to love by loving….and you learn how to kill by killing, only we are not talking about human life or harm, but that which is already dead…as I fully believe in natural law’s non-violence principal….yet, also in defending yourself should that ever arise.

Some people will tell you to kill things that you need, like:

- Kill the ego (no, don’t kill the ego, please, it is what makes up your personality, your persona, which can be authentic or a mask, so it’s about cultivating a healthy ego and letting go of the asshole-grandiose-inflated-ego that has been hardened in this wacky world and lost compassion... a healthy sense of self is imperative to wholeness….killing the ego is part of the agenda, the automoton world who is passive and apathetic…but the unhealthy ego, murder that fool, its making you do dumb shit that hurts others, yourself and is a real eye-roll)

- Kill the fear (for example if you fear what the government might do then it’s probably telling you to work on your sovereignty to recognize where you are giving away your power, especially when both sides serve the same master and lead to the same result, as intended….or if you fear heights, maybe you want to go have an experience that forces you into heights like walking over a bridge or rock climbing… or maybe you fear commitment, to which you should find something to dedicate a level of commitment to in order to show yourself you are capable of committing to something and seeing it through...whatever it is, fear is directly connected with our intuition and the ultimate dare devil for, which, when we do face what it is showing us, we grow exponentially and also step into more fullness of the human experience.

- Kill connection, that’s right, that’s what a lot of spiritual communities tell you when they claim detach detach detach….what they are really saying is keep arm’s length, don’t step into your fears…don’t have the human experience that might bring disappointment, sadness, change…all the things that we need to exist fully and completely…detachment from everyone and everything is not the answer, it’s a cop-out, a fear of losing something, thus missing out on the gift of connection…deep connection. Think of it like this, if you have a pet, you know they will die, you know it will cause deep pain…yet you care for them and you love them anyway, right? Now imagine if we did this with others, with openness, with a knowing that it’s ok whatever happens down the road but in this moment I’m going to stay open to loving despite the pain. I may need to endure later to move through the totality of the experiencing of giving and receiving the greatest gift we get to be part of as living men and women, but it is always worth it, even when the endings are sad. If all we do is detach, the lessons lose value, the silver lining becomes tarnished.

When you’re willing to strip away the armor you’re holding up, you must be able to look at your life within a bare landscape, raw honesty, and sever with a sharp blade:

- All the lies you’ve been telling yourself

- All the anger you’ve been harboring

- All the old parts of you that showed up out pressure to fit in or wear a certain title

- All the stress, worry, anxiety that is eating away at you

- All the clutter, the habits that make us bleed, the consuming of things that are empty, from endless information to the things we think we need…but don’t

- All the time spenting to do things you think you should or wasting time on things that do you no good

- All the taking advice from people who haven’t been where you want to go, who don’t live how you want to live, who are full of you-know-what

- All the limiting beliefs that are holding you back from fulfilling your greatest purpose and potential

- All the justifications you are making for yourself and others that you know are bullshit, that keep you dancing around mistakes instead of acknowledging them

You must pick up the scythe yourself and become the vulture, cleaning up your own life, cutting the energetic ties to all the things that hold you back so that you can step into greater connection with the Divine, with yourself, with those you love, with your passion…..and use that scythe to remove the things that are the hardest to remove:

- The things you like to do but are not useful, not fruitful

- The things you like but are in the way

- Relationships you like but are not aligned in principle, or that are toxic, remove the energetic tether

- Systems you’ve participated in, or out(sourced) your power to, where you’ve given your sovereignty away

- Anything that is tempting you to make terrible, awful, foolish, choices…. it’s got to go in the literal or energetic bin

You see, to manifest what you want in life, you must learn about the destructive phase of life…. NOT the out-of-control self-annihilation of total chaos, addiction and/or numbing out, but a deliberate, discerning and directing of destruction that is for your highest good and those you love. Do you know what you are becoming? You are shapeshifting into another version of you whether you recognize it or not, every day the choices you make affect the future you.

When you realize your shadow has use for “good,” then you can bring balance, or harmony, into the trinity of creation, destruction and neutrality through awareness and integration.

Clearing and cutting away all beliefs, habits and choices that are detrimental, wasteful or simply not what you really want to be doing with your time, energy, currency…with your mind, body, spirit is a necessary part of making room for your purpose, potential and presence in everyday actions.

Just remember to be fully present about what you want to bring in every time you make room or take something out, otherwise the space will be vulnerable to fill up again with the same things, even though it may look different…and you’ll get stuck in a loop, a cycle.

Just as we must descend into greater embodiment in order to ascend, we must destroy, not by harm, but by making different choices, living more intently, and removing all the excuses, in order to begin to merge the opposites, in order to reach a point of neutrality, in order to step further into the action of creating our own lives deliberately….and beautifully.

To be a benevolent killer is to pull the switch on that which is already not alive, not offering breathing nourishment into your soul…..all that is evil…for the opposite of evil is life, living, and we can change the consequences we endure by changing the circumstances allowed in along the way. So what are you spending time on that is already dead, not nourishing, not lighting you up, not life-giving….and why do you keep feeding it your time, energy and attention?

In Celtic mythology, The Morrigan is the goddess associated with revenge, a harbinger of death. Not unlike the Hindu Goddess, Kali, these archetypes are often looked upon negatively and are deeply misunderstood.

These archetypes are inviting us to face evil forces and protect innocence, be it actual children or our own inner child. The images and aspects of the dark goddesses is the opposite of how most perceive them, they are asking us to look at the darkness in ourselves, to know what we are capable of, to be willing to wield that to protect our sacred life and those we love…AND to sever all the distractions and temptations of this inverted world that are constantly bombarding us and trying to pull us away from our true calling…our true nature, as individuals and a collective….we must face the egregore and say No More, I do not consent and then put on blinders to live a life of our own creative forces….for when we do this we can truly begin to author a new reality, one where we are not afraid of power, where we know how to use it for good.

Harley Quinn, like the Morrigan, is an archetype of the good girl who is tired of playing nice, tired of society asking her to look a certain way – be a certain way – of proclaiming, that’s just the way it is.

No. That’s not the way it is.

When that energy is not properly channeled into truth, re-wilding, freedom, passion, it can become negatively destructive like Harley Quinn. The point is, instead, to be destructive of your own bullshit and channel that sacred rage, anger, injustice, problem, obstacle into a badass adventure where you can look back on your life and say, I killed it….in the most positive wonderful benevolent sense, of course….cause you’re a badass….a lovely weirdo and all that you cut away cleared a path for you to shine your own light brighter and when you do that others can begin to see, too, they have a pile of shit that they’ve accumulated that they need to bury, burn, cut away, release, or write down all those beliefs, all that pain, stick it in a pillow and get out a sharp knife….alchemize it however you have to, go dig a grave and bury those beliefs in the ground…or have a bonfire…yes, there are calmer, normal, ways to make these changes but sometimes we need to use movement to make it stick.

And believe me, I’ve got plenty to get busy (re)moving, myself.

And it’s ok if,

Sometimes the blade is dull.

Sometimes we fear picking up the blade.

Sometimes we leave a bit of armor on.

Sometimes we hang on to the things that hurt us because it’s all that is left that feels familiar, nostalgic…residuals of the old versions of being.

We fear killing old versions of ourselves because we think that means killing the memories, lessons, and the good, but no, that’s the fear and doubt talking, the programmed limitations.

Sometimes we need to have a eulogy for the shit we get rid of…thank the old beliefs that helped us cope through hard times….it doesn’t have to be an ugly kicking to the curb, but a gentle removal after we recognize what we held in reverence, is no more.

As we witness true evil in our realm from eugenics to wars, we have an opportunity to transform the toll of death, the evil sold by others as good (pharmaceuticals…propaganda….deception) by taking that energy and killing away our attention on what “they” want for us, starving the beast that tempts, cutting down the walls of indoctrinated division and clearing the brush for a new path….one of inner-peace and harmony, one of sovereignty and freedom.

And remember, your words are a weapon that you can use for good, or evil…like the scythe, you can use them to clear a path that invites in the beauty and glory of awe and wonder…or you can let all that is not for you grow so tall that you can no longer find the way.

There is death in nature, constantly, from my cat killing mice to our vehicles barreling down innocent bugs…it’s inevitable…but we forget that sometimes we become the walking dead going through the motions, caught up in the commotion…so why not embrace the time we have today, this moment, and let die what holds us back from remembering to open our eyes and be fully alive…and that doesn’t take much, just awareness, breath and presence to snap out of it, to stop the kill switch that already was trying to siphon our prana away from us. Right now you can choose to pull it back in by re-directing that switch unto itself.

Now make like a crow and get to it,

Kill the shit that doesn’t “really” matter so you can focus on what does,

Kill the layers of stuff, physically and energetically, stopping you from living with more freedom and joy,

Now I’m going to self-defense class to practice some kicking….I’m going to murder that bag,

;-) with love and purposeful punches,

~ Angela