What do you want?
Beneath the surface of desires
You don't want more money...you want more freedom to do things that align with your true will...the feeling of less restriction...an opportunity for greater availability of choices……. Let the tension, that restriction, bring uncomfortableness so that you’ll start making choices towards greater freedom from where you sit today….let the current-sea come out to play….let the metaphysical coins jingle by coining a new way of being, a dance of giving and receiving, a song that only the sway of hips can bring to life in a fleeing from kneeling to anything that is not life giving…welcome heaps of breathing.
You don't want a bigger house...you want to expand the container of your expression, to breathe out a life beyond the ordinary, a life where the mundane becomes meaningful, where daily tasks become magical...a life where the ideals of the world are left behind….you don’t need a bigger house to do this, just recognize your own energy as it fills up and moves through your space(s)…what are you thinking? Where are you shrinking?
You don't want a fancier car...you want to experience a smooth ride of exquisite beauty and surrender...you want to witness and melt into the movement of traveling down the highway of life from your own unique vantage point, not listening to the GPS, not gripping the steering wheel of fear, but navigating the wheel via your own inner compass….nature is luxury, freedom is luxury, the wind blowing through your hair is luxury, sinking into a flowing stream is luxury, stopping to smell the roses is luxury….focus on what hides beneath the surface of your desires….what “drives” you…is it fast or slow…is it wide open or narrow…is it wild or controlled…maybe both?
You don't want to climb the ladder to success...you want to prove to yourself that you can do hard things....you want to believe in your own worth…you want to get off the rat race and get in to the embodied vehicle you've been granted access to animate...to define success your way...not by the status quo...to write your own story instead of following someone else’s…chop the ladder up and make a fire, sit by it and dance with the infrared glow as it penetrates your being reminding you that sometimes the deconstructed path is an option…and the ladder is merely a mechanism for your creativity to grab onto…choice points to be made anew…rungs to ring into a form that only you can do.
You don't want a spa day...you want to validate the importance of rest and rejuvenation you feel beneath the ache of your fascia inside a world that rewards running on empty...you want to plant the seed of greater nourishment and watch it grow...you want to remember how to move slow….sometimes the best spa day is playing in the mud not getting a mud mask….it’s dancing in the rain, not getting a hydro treatment…it’s crawling into bed for a mid-day nap, not driving somewhere to relax in a chamber of permission….the cocoon always waits.
You don't want to be motivated...you want to be moved to the point of change where all resistance melts away and the old version of you is obliterated...where inspired action is not a choice but a must...where useless positivity turns into passionate tangibility...where awe returns and the wondrous nature of living is turned on to the senses….when you find a quote that sings to you, let that motivation move you in the moment instead of continuing to scroll on inside a digital donut….a negative current.
You don't want to be a motivator...you want to be of service...to connect to those deep layers of being through an alchemical expression of authenticity so real that it echoes into the collective consciousness and breaks the spell of amnesia….where false tethers are severed and genuine connections are gathered...where your mission is not just what you do but who you are….you don’t need to motivate anyone to change, your choices, courage, and candor do that naturally…more inCOURAGEment….less motivational intent.
You don’t want to quench your thirst…you want to drink in the codex of life written inside the beating-flowing-dancing structure of what we call water…you want to remember who you are as you bathe in the stillness of a hot bath…you want to remember who you are as you step into the invigorating song of a waterfall’s rhythmic calling…when the feeling of thirst comes forward, when the desire speaks to your tongue, close your eyes and connect with the river moving inside your veins, with the movement of walking upon the plains, with the tingling energy of your aura titillating your skin’s terrain…your senses want to awaken….are you moving in our out with the tide…are you satisfied….or fearful of being unoccupied?
You don't want more time...you want to honor the sacredness of saying NO to the bullshit and respecting the gift of being alive...to choose to stop whittling away the preciousness of each moment toward distractions and dopamine…propaganda haphazards built into the smokescreen ….to make the most of what time is…to stretch it out of the linear box it’s been put within…to make it stop and make it go…to be so present that it melts away like snow…the cold snowflakes drench the soil into a delicious rejoin…change the concept of time in your mind to drown out the noise.
Beneath your wants, your desires…your knowing, your will, waits to be uncovered, revealed.
What do you really want?
Maybe it’s similar to what I shared, maybe it’s something else.
Maybe it’s not lust but a longing to quench the thirst of your soul in places where you’ve neglected, denied…the kind of nourishment that asks you to show up in a new way?
Beneath the superficial layers is the truth….
Will you give yourself permission to look at what you really desire and undress the cloak it’s been hiding behind? Is it good, is it bad, is it a wound dressed up in fads? Is it this or is it that, what will actually change if it is something you had? Is it the thing or what lives beneath, is it real or a fantasy?
What do you really want? Is it yours or an idea implanted in your head? Is it valid or is it a fear of being misunderstood? Is it something you’ve been taught or is it part of you….the inner dwelling of your heart…your home?
Beneath the surface of what you think you want lives your true desires.
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Angela
Introspective and insightful 🙇🏻