Questioning

Curiosity and Certainty

New urges arise…I ask myself:

Is this programming?

Is this me?

Is this what I want?

Is this who I want to be?

Is this authenticity?

Life presents new opportunities to examine beliefs.

Even those beliefs held most true.

Even the beliefs that will hurt most to let go…to move through.

Even beliefs most rooted into an entire life history.

Yet, life isn’t just about knowing anything…. it’s not about information.
Knowledge doesn’t equate to wisdom, nor exaltation.
In a world of constant information, society morphs from nation into an amalgamation.
A digital scroll speaks messages in a Narcissus-like degeneration.

Are you seeking for data alone, or looking inside pages where heart and soul were left out of the book? Just because something said this or that doesn’t mean you’re on…or off…the hook.

Examining beliefs is a process of unknowing.
Clearing the clutter of programming is a forging…and exposing.

God gives situations that make you sit down…. you’re cracked open in a humbling upon the ground…tears form from a sacred fountain, everything right side up again from being turned upside down…everyone eventually comes down the mountain.

Awakening tests you to think…. beyond the mystery.
You’re asked to look…. beyond where you stop looking.
You’re dared to find compassion…. beneath stones that have never been moved.
Can you hold on to power while keeping heart or humility?…. fruits are revealed in tests of humanity.

Everyone fails.

That’s where beauty lives.

That’s where character is built.

That’s where choice points are revealed.

Seek if you dare, but you’ll be brought to your knees.
Not because you aren’t whole, but because it’s required to see.
To see with eyes removed from a prideful synapse.
To see with senses heightened from a state of collapse.

Mishaps are not about misery.
Mistakes aren’t about imperfection.
Emotions are signposts.
Questions move the quest along.
But limits remain along the periphery.

Questions without compassion are like forgetting the compass and going into the forest alone. The wolves wait for little red riding hood…. did she remember this time to bring a light, bring a weapon, bring a compass, bring a cyclone.

Blow away danger.
Blow kisses of love.
Blow life into living.
Blow thoughts to a dove.

Where is the love deep down in your heart?
Is it full or do you have an empty cart?
Has your heart shrunk or grown too big for your chest?
Do you think you’re better than all the rest?

Because everything you think you know, can change in an instant.
What once made you feel certain, can be removed like a thorn from a rose…poof…non-existent.

Always more more more….reaching for a door.
A servant or in service….thirsting for an empty pour.

Layers upon layers upon layers.
When the heart goes missing…
…you’ll try to make sense in order to control…to wield power over others…to kill feedback upon the outset of a grassy knoll….to stand above others to feel special...an attempt to find something whole…but, like water, you shall return to level.

Is it true or just a paradox’s attempt to subdue?
is it good or just a façade of wood?
Is it useful or merely museful?
is it filled with love or just words?

The most beautiful things in life are the things that force us to re-examine ourselves…the times we make sacrifice to help someone else…. the beauty that speaks when our hearts swell…. the life that comes from the Divine well.

Let us remember that point of contradiction…. the turning point that appears in a projection…

fear cast out, love cast in
Love cast outward from within, beauty blooms until the end

Are we willing to examine ALL of our beliefs, or only the ones that we’re ok losing what feels comfortable?

Just when you think you know…just when you thought you had it figured out…God laughs.

The cosmic comedy continues.

It’s a laugh-in, but all the clowns must go.

Remember….invite the heart into the questions….don’t just use the mind….for wisdom always dances…revelations include the sublime.

Curiosity can reveal….or kill….
But is it killing the ego or making it grow bigger…
Are you grounded in the natural…or waiting for tomorrow…

There is so much cruelty out there….don’t let it swallow your heart….keep holding on. (note to self)

Love is not just love, it’s not about feeling… it’s a responsibility, a call to action, an excavation for re-direction…an invitation to do better…to be better…and I am not exempt…I can do better…humanity can do better…all of us can. A softened heart can give tough love…it does not sit idly by and watch people self-destruct without speaking up. To ignite the heart is not to sit in a ooey gooey blob of what appeals to the mood on a given day, but to include it inside the hard things and uncomfortable places that lend a helping hand when we lose sight of the road.

And remember, your quest in life is only as good as your questions…and curiosity.

May your quest be one of big love…and stepping over every trap set along the way,

Angela